You would think that years of travelling, all the coming and going would make me good at hellos and goodbyes. I think I even deluded myself into believing that. This last group of goodbyes has once again proven me to be WRONG. Leaving Australia hurt this time. I had so many people love … to leave and it was not fun. Plane rides, road trips then a great surprise … hellos to more people I love. But the next day it hit me, I truly LOVE these people and I don’t want to leave them. I preceded to spend the rest of the day crying over my love for my friends and my life that is full of people I adore. It was one of the worst yet best days of my life.
It was this day that I realised that my life is truly blessed with the kind of blessing that hurts to the core, I honestly and whole-heartedly love my friends and family so much that it actually causes me pain. Wow huge revelation that love really does hurt even when it is wonderful.
As I am about to say goodbye and feel that pain again (too many times in such a short period) I have to remember that I am about to say hello to a whole new group of people that could be loved that much too. I have to not let love shut me down … I cannot protect myself from it or else I will miss out on so much more.
Thank you for letting me love you and loving me in return. It is the best kind of hurt I could ever hope for (if you hope for that kind of thing).
